SO YOU THINK YOU'RE A DESTINY MASTER........

well you're not......you're just like me.........and at times you feel like the wheel of the car is driving you......you know i'm right.......destiny spins along......and sometimes it's in rythymn with all your moves.........and that feels good........feels like synchronicity.......smooth and catlike, you're rocking along..........your responses to the various stimuli seem to be butterfly-like......and you're feeling good..........feeling like coloring..........or eating an unopened can of beer whole.........or breaking a stack of bricks with your money-clip........sure you can feel that way.........but the truth of the matter is this.........you can feel all you want......but it's just a feeling........you aint Sonny Chiba today........and you sure as hell aint gonna be Sonny Chiba tomorrow........destiny is a sticky widget and you nor i are in the driver's seat...........we're just rolling with punches if we're lucky.........that's when we're feeling capital,right?............when we're rolling with the punches...........in the end,that's all we can do.........roll with em,baby...........

that said, i know this...........i'm the happiest i've ever been when i'm with Tracy............we got something here...........i hope with all my hope molecules and all my punk rock points that you got something too(i'm assuming that if you're reading this, you're a friend who could maybe use a lil mojo)............

be certain that you are good and true to the folks in your life that make the difference between you being an automaton and you being an idividual........i know for a fact(from experience) that you can't count on the ones you love being around forever..........

i stared at your picture today,Cary.........and i'm missing you.........

i stared at your picture today,Tracy.........and it reminded me that i adore you.........

rock it like you're trying to commit murder..........

Brian

CIRCUS CLOWNS AND A FISH FRY........

This weekend has a bit of everything..........tomorrow, friends and family gather to celebrate the 62nd birthday of one of the most colorful characters i've ever known, Mr. Mike Grover....this is a man who narrowly escaped death as a very young man and has gone on to squeeze every last drop of joy he could get out of life.......we're gonna fry up some fresh fish,recently plucked from the Savannah River and Clarks Hill Lake(around these parts we refuse to acknowledge the fact that the lake was renamed after Strom Thurmond)........lots of food,acoustic guitar,family,friends and booze.........now that's a fine way to spend an evening.........

Sunday afternoon I head for Charlotte,NC..........i play a stand up drum kit in a band(i use that term loosely) called THE HELLBLINKI SEXTET.........it's a loose conglomeration of musicians that play a vaudeville,old timey,piratey mix of styles.........the leader of the band plays guitar while singing and simultaneously playing drums with his feet(nice gimmick, but his meter and sense of tempo are for shit)............my association with this group is tenuous at this point, but that's another matter altogether..........i've been in this band for two years and it's been interesting, but blah blah blah.........i regret that my interest is waning right at the time when a larger following is amassing around the southeast...........

at any rate, the point i was getting to is that i'm playing with HELLBLINKI in Charlotte.........we're playing at THE VISUALITE THEATER...........the show is being put on by CAMEL CIGARETTES for Charlotte area F&B folks..........damned shame i'm no longer a smoker..........might've gotten a free carton of smokes out of it..........however, the best part is the fact that we are opening for THE BINDLESTIFF FAMILY CIRCUS........look em up on the internet............interesting stuff..........aerialists,clowns and whatnot...........

on a sidenote, today i performed at cookout for the mentally retarded clients we work with on my job.............never will you find a more appreciative audience..........and no one smiles wider in response to a bit of good music............and oh how they danced..........picture if you would, 50 mentally retarded people dancing and partying like it's the best day of their lives........believe me, it's EXACTLY like you picture it in your head........they looked pretty damned silly(a sense of rhythmn from pluto)...........but they could care less about looking silly...........THEY WERE HAVING FUN............and that's all that mattered...............my heart was warmed and i felt like i gave back a little.................

To whomever reads this...............hope your weekend is chock full of retarded dancing.........

Rock it like you're trying to commit murder..........

BEGIN THE BEGIN.........

By way on introduction, welcome to this,my humble slice of the blogger universe.........it is my sincere hope to avoid boring you into a drooling,stupor.........regardless, the fact remains, i'm just a regular guy....sharing many of the same interests as other regular guys all over this green earth.....i love music(i've played original music in bands for over twenty years....i'm the guy beating the living piss out of the drums)........i've been having a stormy affair with the evil/gorgeous game of poker for several years now...I know how to play ace-king in late position at a loose/aggressive table.......but, i'm far better at omaha hi-lo.......i am a diehard ATLANTA FALCONS fan.........and if you know anything about football, you have some idea just how frustrated i am right about now......

I write to you from the middle of the woods in South Carolina.........literally, woods are all i see from any window of the house.......there are tomato plants preparing to render their fruit out front.........and boy is that some delicious fruit........man, a little salt,pepper,mayo and sliced tomato and you got one helluva sammy......the jolly roger flies from the front deck.........and baby Aidan meets the world in two months to this day if the predicted due date is at all accurate........

I will be using this space to spew forth my brain farts to the world.........hope you'll join me..........

Rock it like you're trying to commit murder...........